Lore:Letter from Zerith-var

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Letter from Zerith-var
A personal letter from Zerith-var

[PlayerName], who I am proud to call tamiit, I unburden my heart of that which I have long wished to tell you by writing this letter.

I remember little of my early life, being now so distant from it. We were traders, nomads. We rode little and walked often, even beyond the sixteen kingdoms. So I always preferred walking. Even when I earned my moonclaw, I would avoid using it for portals where possible. I longed to see Nirni, to take in all her textures and many brilliant colors, in the one life I thought I had.

In all my years, I more often than not journeyed with another by my side. First with family among the Baandari, then with masters and ma'hadaliit and of my training years, then with Moon-Singer Talbira, and a parade of other moon-singers, as you know, before I met Ravith. And when she and I walked together, that is when we found and saved Ja'kh.

Our little street cat always valued his independence. I, however, fretted losing him in our many travels. He was the runt of his litter, and half-blind besides, but I could not keep him lashed to my side. He was free to wander. Ravith and Talbira, always too good to me, conspired and had a bell made for him, kept on a ribbon around his neck. Then, wherever we traveled, I could hear this bell and rest well knowing that Ja'kh was near.

But when Ravith left us, Ja'kh was practically a phantom. Perhaps he was confused at her departure. Perhaps he sensed the darkness making its home in my heart. Perhaps he saw what transpired with Talbira and feared me too much to come close. I could hear, or imagined I heard his bell, and though he would not come to me, it was still a small comfort to think he was near.

It was then, for the first time, that I ever walked the world alone. Without someone who might rest a warm hand on my shoulder, or to whom I might offer a sip from my water skin. One who might lend an ear to my thoughts and share words in return. Some are built for such solitude, whether they prefer it or weather it with dignity, but I am not among them.

I went to Ravith-morna to meet my end, and what met me beyond was exactly what I had in life. My soul walked alone to Azurah's Crossing on a path clouded with darkness. I clawed my way there and arrived broken, perhaps beyond recognition as one of Azurah's children. I cried for her deliverance. To be among the souls of others beyond the lattice. But I was in no state to pass through her gates.

And so, I suppose she cast me back. To find some way to redeem myself. And despite the pain of walking so long alone, the pain of from the mistake of running from my past, I clearly see the path ahead of me lies at your side. I knew when Ja'kh's spirit found me in Khenarthia. If he would find me again with you in my company, then you were one I should follow. You were a wanderer like me, with your own shares of darkness weathered. We were the same that way. Twin souls. Tamiit.

It is unthinkable that if I had not turned away from Azurah's Crossing, I would never have met you. It is the aim of all who follow Azurah to find our twilight path to love and redemption. Whatever darkness we must endure beyond this point, I know now, I have found my twilight path at your side.

Endless blessings upon you, my friend.

-Zerith-var